Over the next few hours, all I could think about was how the hell I fell out of bed. It was like a police investigation going on in my head, thinking of all the ways possible as to how it happened. It wasn’t until I thought of the way I landed, combining it with my height. I imagined where my feet would have been, that’s when it clicked…
I thought to myself, ‘You idiot, you can’t walk unaided and yet you tried to sleepwalk!’
The irony, I did see the funny side even though I was in a lot of pain! Laughter is the best medicine, right?
Just to be sure, I was sent to a hospital for an X-ray which confirmed nothing was broken.
I really did think I had screwed everything up but thankfully somebody must have been watching over me.
Back to physio updates, as I only had a few weeks left we focused on walking, without my frame but instead holding on to my physiotherapists hand and a rehab assistants hand. It turned out I walk quicker with them than I do with the frame!
The wedding aisle is roughly 8/9ft so walking that distance was my ultimate goal. My mum and brother-in-law are walking me down the aisle, I need two people to help me walk plus I chose them both as my mum has practically raised me by herself and I’m the youngest. I chose my brother-in-law because from the day I met him 7/8 years ago, hes been the brother I’ve always wanted 😊
The first time I walked without my frame was in the small physio gym. It was unexpected as my PT held out his hand and gestured for me to stand up. He really did believe in me. It wasn’t until I took a few steps, with my PT and Sophie, that I realised, I won’t be walking down the aisle with my frame, I would be walking with my mum and Jon 😁
I had tears in my eyes when I realised and it took everything to hold the tears back. I will never forget that moment ❤
Back in 2017, when I lost my central vision, it broke my heart that I could not see a loved ones face unless they were bang right infront of me. I decided that I wanted to try photography, my reason being that the camera could capture moments that I may miss. I have got a good little camera but sadly, due to all these events, I never got the chance to explore photography.
Grace suggested I could take the staff photos, as they had a board ready for them to go up on and explain who they were. It was a lovely opportunity and over 3/4 months I managed to get almost every single member of staff. The biggest challenge I faced was my Ataxia, poor grip, couldn’t tell which buttons were which, hands shaking.
Grace really is a superhero because she helped me find ways to overcome these obstacles. She let me borrow her tripod, which prevented the camera from shaking, she also stuck ‘bump-ons’ (not actual buttons but they help massively with those who are visually impaired) on the on/off and capture button.
Editing was really difficult at first, on Grace’s laptop, as this was the first time I had used a laptop since I lost my central vision. Once Grace made the cursor bigger which helped and had shown me whereabouts the icons were, that I would use the most, I got the hang of it. I was really proud of my first ‘shoot’ and editing.
Ewan’s brother, sister-in-law and our nephew came to visit us at rehab (Ewan was allowed to stay over 1-2 nights). It was really lovely seeing them and catching up. Any (sister-in-law) watched me having physio and my PT asked if I would like to walk down the corridor, which I did however I wasn’t expecting to walk far.
But I was wrong.
I sat in my powered wheelchair, at the end of the corridor, I stood up and began walking with my frame, with the support of my PT and Erica (rehab assistant). After about 5ft, my PT and Erica held out their hand for me to take. One by one, I took their hand and began walking.
Sweat seeping out of places that shouldnt normally sweat. Sheer determination. Giving it my all.
I walked to the end of the corridor! I paused at the corner to catch my breath, my PT asked me if I wanted to stop there but I wanted to give it my all so I replied, “No, I want to keep going”.
I managed to walk to my room which was 3/4 up the next corridor.!!
I had done it, I had walked a little further than the length of the aisle! One step closer, now just to actually walk down the aisle!!
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